Confused as to what to do about my situation.

by Gar

I recently have come to the realization that I show all the classic signs of ADHD and have had the symptoms since childhood. I'm currently 43.

I have always withdrawn from people in general, I have never been able to hold a job for longer than 1yr (I simply get bored). I can't focus even on the most simple tasks. I'll probably start 3 or 4 more things before finishing this post. And proof read it and edit it 30 times minimum.

Example: (The online job application I just filled out took me 16 hrs to complete) it was 1 page. I just started 13 other tasks in between.

I have a million ideas at once but cannot follow through or focus on any given one, is the best way to describe my mental process.

Listening Pfffft (not happening) I sincerely feel remorse for my fiance she thinks I'm simply an inconsiderate ass that doesn't listen. Which in my current state is a half truth. I have a bad habit of getting impulsively impatient when communicating with others, more often than not finishing their sentence so the communication can progress at the same rate my mind races. Or shutting down completely just saying (sure & yes) to whatever they say even though it does not register.

I don't know what to do, or how to proceed. Professional help requiring money is not an option obviously as I'm unemployed. I feel like now that I potentially come to an epiphany regarding my situation I'm caught in a chicken and the egg scenario where one precludes and yet potentially solves the other. (Job and Treatment)

I'm completely lost as to how to proceed.