I hate having ADHD!! but sum times like it?

by steven searles
(neenah)

my name is steven 15 i love to work with electronics or computers it the thing im good at but i dont know why every 1 tells me that im very smart with computers but when ask how i know how i fix a problem there computer is having even when thy have a computer or electronic device i have never seen in my life or used i just figure it out i don't know how i just think its commonsense things and i dont just ask how to do i do this i have to figur it out on my owen and once i start i cant stop tell i fixed it when but yet i have never ben taught how to do this stuff every 1 says im so smart but at school thats completly untrue i pas my classes but by very little like for example in math i can sit there and find my self staring at 1 problem for minutes and there problems i can do but it like i just like freez up like i have no clue what im doing then all find my self slowly drifting into others conversation completely for getting my homework

also i have vary few friends if any because i never shut up but i cant seem to control it ether i talk to much or i dont talk at all.. and alot of times im aware that im being annoying but once i start i cant stop i mean im concise of what im doing but yet i keep doing it i just wish there was a way i could be normal and not annoying i never seem to be good at anything i can never fully accomplish something and if i am doing very good at something i get 2 place never ben in 1st for anything

i am always aware of people and always trying to impress them but i always end up trying to do this by trying to be like some1 els or i will find my self over exaggerating things

when ever i have a sleep over i never want to go to sleep but my friend dose and i cant understand that cuz im never tired i always need to be doing something like i cant just walk across the hall i have to jump or run if i do stay up very late then i will be tierd when i wake up in the morning but only for a wile and then its just like bang!! im ready to go

i just wish i could find some friend to talk to or some 1 that was just like me and knew what i was talking about and would hate me after the first 30seconds of knowing me and i wish i could do some thing right for once