is it a disability?

by paul durso
(uk london)

of course it is.. BUT BEPENDING ON HOW YOU SEE LIFE. Most normal people i see are so caught up in their own little world that it bothers me and frustrates me... I like everything and am constantly looking for new things to stretch my mind. I may not actually carry on with the NEW project, but i know quite a lot about lots of different things... At school my teacher said that i would not pass my exams as i couldnt follow the correct procedures for writing. Maths was so confusing, history i knew was only written by the people who were in power, but i was a fast runner (14 years old 11.8 sec for 100 metres, i played county tennis, i played football everyday and night and played for 3 teams, i was the best swimmer. so in a way IF I HAD IF BEEN PUSHED into one of these and actually committed to it, i would of been successful. Now im a plasterer who does oil paintings and a fitness instructor, i'm interested in physics and sciences now that i have learnt to control it. Unfortunatly i still haven't learnt to articulate my thoughts to other people.. Im 38 years old with a bpm of 48 and everyone says i look about 25 (because i never really do old people things). I have the attitude now that i am BLESSED with this condition because i have more talent and opinions and knowledge than the so called normal people, and i believe that really successful people are just the complete opposite of adhd. THEY CAN FOCUS,THEY CAN STAY COMMITED ,AND THEY CAN FINISH... But for the majority of normal people i actually feel sorry for them.... By the way i self diagnosed myself after years of soul searching, went to the doctors and told him. He said i was just being too hard on myself and that i should get some exercise. (i was going to the gym 5x a week for 2 hours AND playing sports for 7 hours a day..! so i told him he was just a GP -- A "GENERAL" practitioner, which implied he knew not much about a lot of things !! i had the test 3 months later and recorded a score of 68 !! Over 20 is considered adhd borderline... So who was the clever one.? If anyone wants to ask me things or get some advice, im not a doctor , but i know my stuff. You can post a comment here and ill respond. sorry if i waffled on a bit, and made a few grammatical errors------------- but thats the adhd.....