Adderall has ruined my life
I have been taking adderall for 6 years now, since then, I have been numb to every emotion in my body. I feel like I am the walking dead, everyday I see my life right in front of me but I am not there. I keep telling myself I need to get a grip and control myself but its beyond that.
Adderall has control of me. I am socially withdrawn and I get nervous being around alot of people. I have been off this medication before and I was a train wreck! Adderall has destroyed my brains ability to produce dopamine.
Everyday I run for my life because if I dont I will be physically immobile, so my fight or flight kicks into over drive. Now that I have read everyone elses post about adderall and how its affecting them I am feel releived to know I am not alone.
Also I called one of the rehab places where I live to see about treatment, when I told him what my addiction was (stimulant) the man said, "Adderall." From his response my guess is there are ALOT of people like me who have been affected severly by adderall.
This is sad and I hope and pray that people think 4 or 5 times before a doctor prescribes this medication. Learn from others who have taken it, this is not a drug to mess around with. I want my old self back again. I pray one day that I will find me.