Did my ADHD come back as an adult?

by Christopher

I do not remember a time that I was not told by my parents that I had ADHD. As early as Kindergarden/first grade I remember how important it was to my parents that I took my daily pill before school so I "didn't drive everyone insane". It's always been a part of who I am, and I accepted that. I certainly never felt bad about it.

Fast forward to the 7th grade, and I switched onto drug that at the time was in clinical trials (Atimoxitine) and I almost immediately lost interest in everything that was life. My mother removed me from the trial, and I decided that I would just not take any medication for a while.

Well a while turned into 15 years. Over that time-span I have come to beleive that I had a handle on all of my ADHD symptoms. My tendency for distraction helps me multi-task and my hyperfocus is my greatest superpower.

But a few weeks ago... all of that started to change. I find myself incredibly restless... I can't sit still at all. Completing tasks at work has become a mental WAR, where literally every couple of minutes I am battling my distractions just to do some data entry. I can't ever find my keys/wallet/phone, I forget what I am doing almost any time I turn around, I can't read an entire paragraph because I keep jumping 20 sentences down, and then 35 up, and then 10 more down and I just give up because it's so frustrating.

I keep running through my mind on things that have changed in my life, to try to identify what is causing this issue. I haven't felt this way since I was a child and I kind of want to cry it's so overwhelming.

There are 2 things I've noticed that have changed.

1.) I stopped playing video games.
This may seem trivial, but I am someone who normally spends a LOT of time playing video games. I have an extensive collection and it's how I spend my free-time and time with my friends. I've been a gamer since as long as I can remember. (Seriously, my FIRST memory I am still in a diaper and playing Super Mario Bros. on our Nintendo NES)

I didn't stop for any reason... I just got involved in a computer project that has taken up all of my free-time for about a year, which a day or two ago I decided I would take a break from because my fiance has pointed out how bad of an obsession it has become.

2.) I moved out of my parents house... finally.
This happened a couple months ago, after a decade of failed attempts.

It's worth noting that over the last 15 years or so that my singular goal in life was to get the hell away from the HORRIBLE people that make up my family. I won't even begin to go into the things that I have gone through with those people at that place...

So, naturally I've been WAY happier than I have ever been recently. I also got engaged in August, and my fiance has moved in with me... Even she has noticed the change. She says it's hard to talk to me (and I don't blame her) because I don't respond to her half the time (I'm too lost in thought about a random thing my cat is doing, or what would happen if a meteor landed outside my apartment, or there is a string on my shirt... )

All these things haven't been problems since I was a child... and I'm hoping someone can shed some insight/opinion on how/why something like this would all of a sudden return.

Please GOD help me... I feel like I've gone crazy.

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Nov 22, 2015
Try less eggs
by: TJ


Try eating less eggs. I noticed that when I eat eggs on a regular basis, even healthy free range eggs, that my symptoms get really bad. I started eating them daily so I had to reduce down to occasional.

I don't see olive oil increasing your symptoms but cooking with it isn't great. Olive oil is a low heat oil and becomes rancid easily. Try a higher heat oil for cooking like grapeseed oil. There are some others as well, I can't think of them.

Nov 22, 2015
by: Christopher

Well, when I lived at 'home', all I really used to eat was junk food. Fast food, or I'd eat out. Cooking wasn't really an option because the kitchen was in a disgusting state.

Now that I'm out of there I cook my meals more often, but not always. I eat lots of eggs now, lots of olives, I try to always cook with olive oil. Turkey or Chicken when I eat meat mostly.

Plus I've been moved out since August, so I don't know why these changes weren't sooner if related to that somehow.

As for exorcise, I've never had a steady routine really. Physical activity really isn't in my daily life. I work a desk job on a phone for 9 hours a day for the past 2 years. Before that my job kept me running though, working fast food.

But again that was so long ago too that I don't know why it would be affecting me now.

Nov 20, 2015
What about your diet?
by: TJ


What about your diet? How has that changed? What things do you eat and drink now that you didn't before? What do you no longer eat and drink that you did before?

What about exercise? Did you stop doing that?

These are going to be the types of things that influence your body.

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