Help me get off Adderal
by Jill R.
I am a 22 year old women who has been taking adderall since I was 14 years old. My parents made me start taking it because they thought I was out of control.
When I was 18 I stopped taking it for about six months, then started again. After about three months of taking the same dosage everyday two 20 mg. in the morning, my doctor upped it to two 20mg in the morning and two 20 mgs in the afternoon.
I stayed on this until I was 20, then she had me taking two 20mgs in the morning, two 20 mgs in the mid morning, then another two 20 mgs in the afternoon.
I was never told Adderall was addictive. NEVER! I just thought I wasn't normal unless I was on it. About three months ago I realized my adderall use was a problem. I have been taking up to 5- 20 mgs a day plus 2 Adderal XR 30mgs a day, and I feel like crap!
But if I don't take them... I will sleep up to three days at a time, eat everything in site, and I cannot concentrate on anything! I'm scared! I look in the mirror and I don't even see myself anymore.
I have been to over four different counselors and nobody seems to help.
I just want to be me again. How did it get this far? Why did my parents put me on this for so long? And not tell me the side effects? What do I do now?